Story till now

I was born on 26th March 1987 at Pala. My lower and upper KG was at Mysore. So was my 1st and 2nd. I studied at JSS Public School Mysore.We were at Mysore becuase my dad and mom were working there. They got transfer from there and came back to Pala. We uilt up a house at Ramapuram, 12km from Pala. I did my 3rd to 12th at Alphonsa residential School Bharananganam,some 3km from Pala. I got a seat in Government Engineering CollegeTrichur for Electronics and Communication Engineeering and presently doing my final year ......

Depression......

Depression is a world
Depression leaves you lost
Depression drops you into a never ending black hole
You want to get help
But you can't
When you do
You wish you didn't
Depression leaves you numb
With fear
Depression leaves you no hope
No ambition
Nothing to look forward to
Tears well in your eyes
Depression leaks out
Out into the open

Love......

Deep in my heart I can feel unrest
And my soul is lost in shadows
Hundred days are passed
And I am still waiting you to come
Every night in my dreams I can see you and feel you
Sometimes I just want to dreams be real
I wish I can turn back time
To say you how much I love you
I wish I can see you again
To feel again your warm love
My dear love,
I am so alone without your love
I can’t dream without you
I still need you
Without you I am hopeless
I have been walking through the darkness
Just to find you,
Cause you are my peace
Who is always brings me happiness
After all this years I have been all alone
Until you come
When you came into my life
For the first time I have felt freedom
You are my angel
My dear love,
I have been so alone without your love

Dead...

How did this all happen?
I'm killing not only me but my dreams
So strong I was turning corners
Feet that carried me round the circles
Where did that stubborn fire within burn out?
Once such passion conquered my will
How did I fall and stumble?
I miss that boy who spoke
Now he's gone and all that's left
Is this grey cloud of smoke.
Inside he cried
While one more small piece of him died.

Life is mine.......

Lived out as an insane without being helped by fortune. Still I'm hunted in the miseries of my heart..I never looked into others seriously. I am selfish..Ha ha. The most disappointed moment in my life was that when i realized i can't get back the good olden school days. I can never compare my school life and college life. My class cant find unity and it wont. Different people think different. But i wanted to shout at my class like this "Don't be Puppets". All are equal and my classmates think very wierdly. Losers, and the biggest loser is here. My life is hidden. All see the happy part which I always like to put up. But a very few, very very few identified i was losing control over me.They are my best friends. I want to be an Introvert but I fear i cant.

Looking into my past always frightens me.Now i'm the living ghost of my Past....